I'm "Bwessed"

Well, here's a run down of the past few days...they have been busy and exciting to say the least!!!

Friday night-a sweet little girl I babysit spent the night with me and we mad s'mores and watched cloudy with a chance of meatballs! :)

Saturday-I went with the little girl and her parents to the chinese restraunt here in Arlington for lunch and then went home to clean

Saturday Night- We had fight night! :) The UFC fights were on, friends came over, and my friend Ashley spent the night

Sunday Morning- Church! I sang for preschool and helped in the nursery

Sunday afternoon- went to the bartlett campus at 4 to load the bus up with decorations and what not for kidzkamp! :D We pulled out about 4:45 and made it home by 11!

Sunday Night- I was crawling into bed at 1:30am after packing!

Monday Morning- Thought I set my alarm for 5:30 but set it for 4:45...don't even know how that happens! Arrived at Bartlett campus about 7:30.

Monday Afternoon- After making the drive to ReelFoot for the 3rd time we made it! :D We got there, unloaded our luggage, ate lunch, played a game, swam, had snack, hung out in the cabins, had Bible Study, ate dinner, and then by that time we were ready for bed.

THIS is where it gets scary.

Monday Night- Lights out at 10! We got all our girls to go to sleep, and then Kamryn and I stayed up talking for 30 minutes or so. After crawling into bed the last time I remember seeing was 11:00.
Fast Forward to about 11:45 or 12. One of my girls woke me up because she had gotten sick all over the floor. I don't have the strongest stomach so I went and woke up one of our adults. Emily, the little girl who had woken me up, said she felt fine and she had just gotten too hot so I gave her some water and told her to sit on the couch out in the main room. That's the last thing I remember.

Next thing I know I'm on the floor, trying to make sense of what's going on. Mrs. MaryEllen (one of the adults) is sitting beside me trying to tell me what happened, Kamryn (my best friend and fellow counselor) is on the other side saying that everything's okay, and then about this time Mrs Sharon (adult), Mrs Debbie (adult), and Brandon (a best friend, fellow counselor, and fellow diabetic) come in together. Mrs Sharon and Mrs Debbie had gone all the way to the boy's cabin to wake up Brandon to check my blood sugar because no one else knew how to do it. Lol :) My blood sugar was completely normal though! All anyone told me at this point is that I passed out.

I called my mom about 12:30 and was pretty upset. I had hit my head on the ground and that didn't feel too good, and I bit my tongue so I was having trouble talking. After getting off the phone with her, eating some peanut butter and celery, drinking LOTS of water, and laughing and talking I went back to the cabin to go to bed. Haha the adults wouldn't let me sleep in my own bed though. I had to sleep in their room! Luckily we have a fourth CIT who willingly took over my group for the evenning and pretty much all day Tuesday. Anyway, I went back to my "new" bed around 12:45 but couldn't sleep because I had a headache. :( I woke Mrs Sharon back up and asked for some ibuprofen and we stayed up another 30 minutes or so waiting for that to kick in. I FINALLY went to sleep around 1:45ish (?) and woke up on Tuesday morning around 7.

Tuesday morning- I woke up, took a shower, got dressed, and went to breakfast with the kids :) I didn't feel bad but I definitely didn't feel normal. I drank my breakfast shake instead of eating biscuits and sausage and pretty much before the kids even started eating I went back to bed. I slept for about 3 hours and when I woke up I felt very sluggish. All the kids were doing various activities and this was the first chance I had really had to ask Mrs Maryellen and Mrs Sharon "What exactly happened???" They then told me that I had had a seizure that lasted about 3 or 4 minutes and it took me about 20 minutes to "come back." I was convulsing and even foaming at the mouth a little. They said that Emily, who may I remind you was there for the whole thing because she was on the couch, ran and got Mrs Maryellen from cleaning up the throw up and that's how she found me. Convulsing on the floor. How scary is THAT?!?! But Emily said I was just walking towards the window, like I saw something, then my knees just gave out, I ran into a trash can, and fell on the floor.

I wasn't feeling very normal. I think I was exhausted more than anything. Every time I leaned over I would get nauseous and my head would hurt. SO, my dad came up around 4 or 5 and picked me up. I was extremely dissapointed but I think deep down I was almost glad. NOT glad to leave camp, but glad to be able to rest in a familiar environment and see my doctor on Wed. morning.

Wednesday Morning- I felt fine! :D I woke up today without a headache, a little sore but it wasn't unbearable, and I made up my mind that if it were up to me I'd go back to camp! Then I started talking. Apparently, during the seizure, I bit my tongue and when I talked you could tell how swollen my tongue is. LOL! I can't pronounce my -r, -s, -sh, -l, or -th sounds very well at all! Hahahaha! I seriously sound like Elmer Fudd! "It's Wabbit Sweason!!!"

Anyway, my doctor said that I seemed to be okay. No concussion from the fall (the biggest concern) and my tongue would be swollen for a day or two. His main concern is what caused the seizure. We know it wasn't my blood sugar but we think it was dehydration. Just to make sure it wasn't anything more serious, I have to go to Lebonheur on Wednesday to have an EEG done. Where they basicallly stick a bunch of wires to your head and monitor your brain waves. No needles and no shaved head so it's fine with me! Lol!

I am feeling very blessed right now. I'm concussion free and that seizure/fall could have been MUCH worse. I'm getting to go back to camp tomorrow, and I'm not even on any medicine or anything. Haha I may not be able to say the word but "bwessed" is definite;y how I'm feeling. :) Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers! They mean the world to me!

11 Truths

Truth #1) No One is perfect so you can stop comparing yourself to others.
Truth #2) Lying and pretending to be someone you aren't just so be people will like you doesn't really accomplish a whole lot. Sure, someone might befriend you but if they don't like the "real you" then they aren't really your friend...
Truth #3) Acting stupid doesn't make you cute.
Truth #4) Simply going to church and doing things that are "church-y" doesn't make you a christian.
Truth #5) Acting like you have everything perfectly put together 24/7 is exhausting and can put unreal expectations on yourself
Truth #6) Too much of a good thing can truly be a bad thing.
Truth #7) Failing at something once doesn't make you a failure.
Truth #8) Admitting your weaknesses doesn't make you weak.
Truth #9) There is a difference between laughing at yourself and making fun of yourself
Truth #10) God DOES give you things you can't handle. Not because He wants to see us fall or make mistakes but because He wants us to cling to Him with everything we have in our times of trouble. It's like He reminds us that He's still here and even in the middle of our biggest storms He isn't going anywhere.

Truth #11) This was a hard post to write. :S Everything I wrote is true, but that doesn't mean I don't struggle with those things.  I compare myself to other people. sometimes I pretend to be someone I'm not just so people will like me, and sometimes I go to church and go through the motions to make myself look good. I'm not proud of that, or any of those things I struggle with, but realizing the truth and being willing to change how I act and my attitude makes things better.

"No one is perfect but we serve a perfect Savior who will always love us unconditionally."